Tiffani

I am 229  pounds and a size 16.  I have read a few blogs  that people say their size and weight. I read one the other day where the person was like 180 and a size 14. I have a friend who is ten pounds less than me but wears a size bigger.  I guess my question is should we set a weight goal or a size goal???  My weight goal is 165 but my ideal size is a 10-12. How is it that people can vary so much in weight but wear around the same size???  I know you have to take your height into consideration but I am still confussed. If I get down to a size 12 but still weigh 15- 20 pounds more than I want to should I be happy or should I get to my goal weight and wear a smaller size??  I am not sure if this made any sense to anyone but me but if you could please help me to understand this.

Ok, well I finaly got up the nerve today to add a photo to my profile. I haven’t done this yet because truthfuly I am ashamed of the way I look.  I know that this is  a site where everyone is here for the same reason and I should feel like I can let you all see what I look like. i mean come on I have shared my feelings…why not my picture??  So today after my weigh in I was feeling very good about myself….down another five pounds this week. So i thought why not just bite the bullet and upload my picture. Well I tried and the message that came back said image too large!!! WHAT???? That is not what I wanted to see…..to large???  Come on. I know I need to lose weight but when even the computer is telling you that you are fat there are serious problems. So if any of you know how to fix this please let me know. Oh, I mean fix the photo image….I know how to fix the weight issue…HA HA.

Help!! I am doing such a good job with the food/portion control of my diet but I need help in the exercise part. I wake up aroung 6:45 to get my son ready to go to school and to get my younger son ready to go to the sitters. I get to work at 8:30 and I literaly sit for eight hours. I have a desk job and have to be by my computer. This leaves little room for any exercise durning the day. I try to get upi and walk around at least once an hour but somedays are so busy that is impossible. I don’t get home at night umtil 6:15 or so and by the time my family has dinner and I getr the kids ready for bed and in bed it is 8:30 or so.  I soend the next two hours or so doing laundry, dishes ot cleaning up the house. I get to bed around 10:00. In all of the weight loss articles I have read they all say to try to get at least 8 hrs of sleep a night. and truthfuly by 10:00 at night I am beat. So my question is how do other working moms work exercise into their daily routine without giving up sleep or having their house look like a bomb went off??? 

I can not say that I am new here.  I have had a profile since september.  The sad truth is that I have only posted two blogs.  Truthfully I look at this site alot but never write down my thoughts to share.  I always tell myself that this site takes up a lot of time.  So NOT true!!  If I can get on here to look at what everyone else wrote why can’t I write something??  Am I lazy??  No, i just don’t take the time to do soething for me. Does that make sense??  I am always putting others first and myself second.  Well this is it, I come first for awhile!!  2009 is my year!!  I am doing this for me.  So this is the first step in many.  Just taking time out of my schedule to post how I feel is a good first step. 

I have been on a “diet”…I hate that word….for ten months now. I have lost about 40 pounds total. I am going at it slow and steady. I know it will all come off at its own pace. I changed the way I look at food….let me tell you that was hard and it took me awhile.  Don;t get me wrong I still love snacks but I have learned that a sanck size candy bar is just as good as the king size.

So that is all I will write for now…more to come I promise.  I will keep this promise to myself to make time for me.  I am just as important as everyone else.

Ok, I think it is time for me to invest in some new pants.  I lost 18 pounds before joining this site and it is starting to show.  I know that doesn’t sound like a lot but it has made my clothes really baggy.  It has gotten so bad that at work people are staring to ask me when I am going to buy new pants becase the ones I wear are starting to hang off me so bad.  I have to keep pulling them up all the time….and lets face it is is not flattering to go around and yanking on your pants all the time.  My shirts are also starting to get big.  I look like a bum when I look in the mirror because my clothes are starting to just hang off me.

I know what you are saying…why is this girl complaining baout having to buy smaller clothes. I am not sure myself.  For some reason I just keep putting it off.  At forst I told myself that I wanted to wait until I had just a little more money to spend on them.  Now that I have the money I am making excuses about not having time.  What is the problem??  Am I scared of something?  I have never been afraid of going to the store to get clothes before.  True it was not the funnest thing in the world when you see all these cute clothes that you can’t fit in becuse they are made for “smaller” people.  Now that I am getting closer to the size that I want to be why am I not looking forward to getting that smaller size?  I know that for now I can only go down one or maybe even two sizes.  Soon though I will be at the “perfect” size for me.  Will I then look forward to going shopping?  Or maybe I am afraid that even though I think I can go down a few sizes I will get to the store and find that those sizes still don’t fit and I am stuck inthe size I was before.  I don;t know if I could go thru that after all of the work I have put into this.  I have worked hard all summer and I don;t want to be let down.

Well I have been reading all of your blogs for a couple weeks now and trying to decide if I want to join buddy slim.  Well today I finally took the plunge and decided to join all of you.  I have tried to lose the weight by myself but it is not working that well.  I have lost 18 lbs!  But that has taken me all summer.  Don’t get me wrong I am very happy with the weight that I have lost but I feel like I could have done better. So that is why I am here.  I hope to gain some support and guidence to help me lose the rest of the weight.  I hope to reach my goal of 165 by next June.  I know I can do it!!